Just Deleted

I did it again. I just spent a good amount of time writing an incredibly lengthy blog entry...and I decided that I didn't like how I sounded and I deleted the whole goddamn thing.

668 words. Mostly relating to my thoughts on the seriousness of death. and frustration with how media treats the event so casually. Also a few bits about how the interesting part of a drama for me isn't how the protagonist deals with a crisis, but rather about seeing the the protagonist reacts to the crisis and how it changes him or her.

I just read a blog by a woman who died of breast cancer in 2011. You can read it too. http://mylifewithbreastcancer.wordpress.com  The blog makes no mention of her death...nor should it, because she's the one who wrote it.

It's difficult to read. There is a lot of optimism and hope at the start, and the tone turns more and more angry, frustrated, and sad toward the end. There is no catharsis. No release. The final entry was posted on November 22 about how she was doing more chemo. She died a month later.

I was going to write a lot about it, but I decided not to. I don't want to sound too cynical, and I don't want to dishonor her memory just in case friends or family happen to read this.

I love you all very much...even the random assholes who might be reading this that I've never met before. Life's a funny thing. Don't take it for granted, whether it's yours or someone else's.

That's it.